Thursday, January 9, 2014

100 Happy Days

by Lyn Paul (1965)

What... are we doing?
Running, Rushing
Shouldn't we...
Be slowing Down?
Losing Life
We should be living
Except
We are not!
We are working
Hours long
Earning, spending
Yet not living
Running, rushing
Constantly.
Ageing...
Before Our time
We are not living
Too Busy!
Running, rushing
To get nowhere.
On Arrival...
You stop,
Breathe.
Think.
Think again.
Running, rushing - WHY?
We Need to live
To feel
To breathe
The Speed of Life

                Sometimes the Human Race is its own worst enemy, with each Homo Sapien carrying its own agenda and daily affairs.  Over time, those agendas seem to overtake our life, turning our individual peaceful tranquility into a marathon that never seems to end.  When I was reading the poem I posted above, I began picturing Grand Central Station and Times Square; whenever I visit the two I seem to be surrounded by a swarm of people hastily clicking away with their high heels to a meeting or with luggage in tow to make a flight.  It’s in both places that I sometimes pause a moment, the only stillness in a chaotic kaleidoscope, and let the colors swarm around me; it’s in those moments I find tranquility, a calm before I reenter the Gulf Stream.

As my last days as a High school student and two years as a teen approach, I too find myself losing that sense of calm, becoming a baby turtle traveling across the globe at blazing speeds, unable to break free from the currents; each day seems to slip from my grasp as the homework and exams pile up and darkness sneaks up upon me at the most unexpected moments.  Sometimes I find myself typing away at my computer, intrigued in an assignment, only to be pulled away by my dog barking at the window.  It’s there that I am surprised and say into space, “oh, it’s already dark”.


While it’s okay to be engrossed in the activity resonating in each of our lives, I’ve noticed more and more that mine seems to be slipping away; where have my 17 years gone?  It seems like just yesterday I began high school.  This flood of emotion came to me when I came across a website entitled 100 Happy Days; its sole mission is to challenge people to find something in their daily life that makes them happy, 100 days in a row.  While it seems like a fun challenge, what interested me was the site’s statistic where it stated that “71% of people tried to complete this challenge, but failed quoting lack of time as the main reason. These people simply did not have time to be happy.”  It made me really think, have I been happy today?  Was I happy yesterday or the day before?  Am I too stressed and busy to be happy?


I really think that sometimes we let life rush by us so fast, that we only recall the stressful, tiresome, work-filled moments because we spend a majority, if not all, of our time focusing on it.  (At least, this is the case for me, I in no way want to speak on the behalf of others and be wrong.)  No wonder, according to The NationalInstitute of Mental Health (NIMH), 3.3 million American adults are diagnosed with depression each year.  And what about the thousands of teenagers and adults that go undiagnosed with clinical or even temporary depression each day?)  I myself, although not clinically affected, sometimes find myself depressed for no reason and I wonder if society is to blame.  To me, it seems as if happiness is no longer an expectation or daily part of society.

With this in mind, I’m tired of overworking and stressing myself; it’s time to dwell and celebrate the good, not the bad moments in our lives.  For this reason, I decided to sign up for the challenge.  Will you?

To Sign Up:
  1. Visit http://100happydays.com/ and sign up (it's not required)
  2. Post a picture to any of your social networking sites with the Day #, a description and the hash tag #100happydays

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

The Snowflake's Strategy

                As the world braves the Arctic Vortex, millions across the Northern Hemisphere gravitate towards the warmth and comfort of their homes.  Yet, despite the freezing temperatures, two small children decide to brave the weather and play amongst the small White Mountains formed the day before.  Together, they each grab a handful of falling, glistening crystals, but a few escape from the grasp of their woolen mittens.  As each snowflake slowly moves away from the two, disappearing towards the ground or carried away by the howling wind into oblivion, so do my days as a senior escape my grasp.

                Today, there is a little more than 6 months of my high school career left.  As the days dwindle, the inevitable becomes a scary thought considering I’ve been in my school for the past seven years (since 6th grade); I don’t remember attending any other educational institution or know what to expect once I leave these crowded halls.  With this in mind, when I was asked in Advisory to pick one word that would describe my remaining days as a senior, only one word came to mind, strategy. 

                Growing up, I was never one of those little girls who played dress up or attempted to run around in my mother’s heels (she would have killed me!).  Instead, I would sit around my living room and write or complete a puzzle.  Through it all, I always had a strategy, whether it was an outline or organizing my puzzle pieces before I began to avoid frustration.  In a way, that need to plan and organize has always resonated with me.

                Recently, I've received some scholarship offers from all the schools I’ve applied to, except one.  However, none of them cover full tuition, only two-thirds.  So, as June approaches, strategy is definitely something that is going to be on the top of my agenda as I work on choosing which one I want to attend and negotiating with Admissions counselors for as close to full tuition as possible.  Which school would I rather attend, the one that I have to pay for with full tuition out of pocket or the one that comes out to $9,000 a year?  How much should I pay for my education?  These are all scary thoughts and questions I have no response for.  It seems like I have a lot of planning to do.

                As I sit here in class typing away and reflecting, I realize that I am that snowflake in the child’s fingers, slowly slipping away; I have no idea where I will travel on my journey, I just know the end, the floor, or in this case, Graduation.  In a way, we are all snowflakes drifting through the frigid air; it doesn't matter what word we choose to describe our lives in the future, where we go in our lives is a mystery.  However, for me at least, strategy will help me on that journey, making it less tedious than it needs to be.


                What will help your snowflake on its journey?